Conscious Contact 

Imagine!  Divine Love in us!  It barely seems possible sometimes.  In these past weeks I have not really felt that but, today is a different day!  Not to rehash old news, my mother is legally, medically diagnosed, paranoid/delusional schizophrenic with suicidal tendencies.  Not kidding.  She has been mentally ill her whole life.  What a sad and terrifying path she has walked.  In some ways, through therapy and proper medication she is better; in other ways as she ages (81) the attitude gets much worse.  For the past 11 years I have been her primary care giver.  She resides in an assisted living facility.  For several weeks now, she has needed medical attention, cataracts surgery, broken hearing aid and a dentist visit.  I have spent many hours in offices with her.   She is un-cooperative, stubborn, self destructive and often abusive.  Needless to say, spending time with her usually leaves me feeling like I've been run over by a real long train and remained conscious to the pain the whole time.  When I take her home after an appointment,  I drive to the remote end of the parking lot and scream first then usually cry to clear myself of negativity as to not bring it home to my family or generally wreck the rest of my day.  Sometimes that's just not enough.

  Divine Love is in us! and was there with me and Mom through the whole ordeal.  God got me through.  There were many signs given to me through out those days that Divine love was near.  All worked out perfectly.  New hearing aid, successful surgery and now 20/40 vision and no cavities.  However, I STILL felt angry, frustrated, disappointed in my own behavior and generally miserable.  Still feeling bad, I listened to a lecture from one of my beloved teachers and a few things he said snapped me back into reality and out of the pain in the illusion that I am less than Divine Love.  That is hell, the illusion that we are separate from God and that we are something other than love or loved.

Upcoming events :  

New Yin Yoga class starts Thursday, October 20th at 10:30 (no class October 4th)
                                      Into the Heart Yoga and Meditation Workshop Sunday, October 7th 2-5pm
                                      Open Drum Circle Saturday, October 20th, 1-3pm
                                     Go to calendar page and click on event for all the details!

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Freedom Flight 

Just beneath the surface there is a great re birthing happening from within people and it will become more and more visible over time.  We are each more than we seem to be.  The time we live in is full of promise and many people are feeling the call to fall back  in love with life on Earth.  Choose to renew and pursue your sense of connection with the immanent Spirit that is within everything on Earth, for Earth holds the key to opening your heart to joy and joy awakens your spiritual wisdom.  -  Robin Rose Bennett

What a beautiful day in Frances Slocum park!  After the humidity and heavy rains of last week, I welcomed this glorious cool Monday, abandoned my computer and moved my "office" out of doors.  I relish the days I can relax, meditate, read or contemplate life in the beauty of nature.  I am completing Sunday's workshop for world peace.  I am very much looking forward to this and will say more later in this letter.

I would like to share an experience I had last week.  I spent most of Thursday afternoon at Eye Care Specialists with my Mom.  (very long day!)  I felt very worn, tired and overburdened by responsibility, then a little miracle happened.  Upon returning home, I opened the door and entered my kitchen.  As I was setting my purse and other bags down I heard an odd but familiar sound.  I turned toward the sink and the window above it and there was a tiny sparrow fluttering against the glass trying to get out.  He was fluttering gently but continuously at the glass.   What a surprise!  I have no idea how he got in.  A Divine messenger sent through Mother Nature's hands. 

My windows slide to the side.  I slid the screen open on the right and attempted to guide the bird out.  It would not move from the closed side.  He must have been tired and he settled on the sill.  I was able to cup my hands around him.  He did not fuss.  What an honor to be trusted by this delicate, little bird.  I held my hands out the window and then slowly opened them.  The bird flew lightly from my palms to the near by pine tree.  How easy it is to be free.  So simple, so quickly he was free and flying once again.  A simple shift in perception from closed glass to open screen, from intellect to intuition; surrender to a Divine nudge and off we go.  Our souls are breaking free.  No more peering through the clouded glass, dreaming of freedom.  We are already free.  Allow your soul to expand, let go of ego driven chaos, follow your soul's voice, ask and allow the helping hands to hold you gently, then open your wings and fly.  The time is now.  The change is here.  Let go and fly!

Onward & Upward 

My child, do not permit yourself to be pessimistic.  You are bearers of joy and you must not be cast down or dismal about the world; the evolution of the race is steadily going forward and you must always see the progress, see the beauty, see the good outworking. - White Eagle

A time of great change is upon us.  The earth is shifting, transforming and expanding to a higher state of being.  Our ego driven lifestyle is deteriorating.  It is time to release old ways of thinking and being and lift up to a higher state of consciousness.  New energies are flooding our planet every day.  Our bodies are changing just as the body of the earth is changing.  Everything ego driven is disintegrating, jobs, relationships and organizations.  All darkness is being revealed and cleared.  Great and new energies from the heart of the Creator are pouring down upon us.  Every day is a new creation.  We are being called to be very present in each moment.  That is where God is.  If you are in nature take in every blade of grass, every cloud and bird.  If you are with people be present, look in their eyes and really see the light there.  Go deep into each human connection.  Go deep within yourself.  God is there. . . . . .  


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A baby pigeon stands on the edge of a nest all day.  Then he hears a whistle, Come to me.  How could he not fly toward that?  Wings tear through the body's robe when the letter arrives that says, "You've flapped and fluttered against limits long enough.  You've been a bird without wings in a house without doors or windows.  Step off proudly into the sunlight, not looking back."

Those who don't feel this Love pulling them like a river, those who don't drink dawn like a cup of spring water or take in sunset like supper, those who don't want to change, let them sleep.

- Jelaluddan Rumi - Sufi Poet

I love Rumi. I read his poetry when I feel stuck or detached.  He stretches one's imagination way past limitations of the mind.  The focal point of his work is about living in awareness of our oneness with God and cultivating that relationship.

Much has already changed for me in this past year, my body, my work and now I find the relationships in my life changing.  When Venus transited the sun on June 5th & 6th it opened the hearts of humanity to love and began to heal and change our personal relationships and our ability to communicate.  It also affected the way we relate to life in general.

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Fine Appreciation 

Affection never was wasted: If it enrich not the heart of another, it's waters, returning back to their spring, like rain, shall fill them full of refreshment.  - H.W. Longfellow

Saturday morning did not start well.  My MP3 player wouldn't work.  I got some sad news about a friend.  Then I dropped off slacks for my Mom who has lived in assisted living for the past 10 years.  She is not well mentally.  It is often disheartening to visit with her.  She is very negative and unhappy.  By the time I left, I was upset and just wanted to make the half hour trip home as quickly as possible.

In the middle of Bennett St., the car in front of me rolled slowly to a stop.  I didn't know why.  There were no pedestrians or cars anywhere.  I allowed my already surfacing emotions to get the best of me and made a poor choice in my desperation to get home.  I crossed the yellow lines and as I passed the car I saw the Mama and 2 baby ducks in the street far from any water.  They were making their way across.  I felt horrible.  Fortunately they were moving in the opposite direction of my car so I surged ahead and got back in my proper lane.  The ducks crossed the street safely.

I am very grateful God was watching out for the ducks and for me despite all my drama. . . .

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Sheer Perfection 

Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin; yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like on of these.  -  Matthew 6:8

I'll be happy when. . . .

I'll relax when. . . . .

How many times have I uttered those statements, setting the stage for disappointment and let down.  I held all sorts of circumstances and conditions over my own head.  I allowed my happiness and peace to be governed by outside circumstances.  I could not relax and enjoy life until all my conditions were met. 

Perfectionism tainted everything I did.  I looked for the faults in myself and my work, instead of appreciating the creativity flowing through me.  I usually picked myself apart after every class or session.  This hindered me from feeling any sense of accomplishment.  Each task brought a greater sense of dis-satisfaction.  I focused on negative qualities of myself and others.  These thought patterns caused me a great deal of unrest I always thought something was wrong or something needed fixing in every moment of the day.  Of course, I believed I was responsible for "fixing it".  Needless to say, this was a very tiresome state of being.  Life was a continuous struggle to get things right or not being or having enough. 

Through some soul searching I have adopted a new attitude toward perfection.  The vision I had. . . .

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Journey’s End 

Ithaka by Constantine Peter Cavafy

As you set out in search of Ithaka, pray that your journey be long, full of adventures, full of awakenings  Do not fear the monsters of old.  You will not meet them in your travels if your thoughts are exalted and remain high, if authentic passions stir your mind, body and spirit.  You will not encounter fearful monsters if you do not carry them withing your soul, if your soul does not set them up in front of you. - written in 1911 by Greek poet Cavafy

Ithaka was the beloved island home of legendary Greek hero, Odysseus.  After playing a leading role in the Trojan War, Odysseus roamed the world for ten years, having adventures, meeting challenges and learning lessons that profoundly changed him.  Today an odyssey means a long often exhausting, exhilarating and/or excruciating trans formative journey.

"The search for authenticity is our own personal odyssey."  - from Simple Abundance by Sarah Ban Breathnach

I have endured my own personal odyssey in the past 6 months.  The journey was long.  It was full of beautiful moments of discovery.  I awakened to the habits and limitations that kept me from my true purpose.  My monsters were set up before me so I could slay them.  Once I was able to see the old negative and habitual thought patterns and the emotional and physical reactions they created, I could allow them to be cleared.  I learned I could change at a level I did not even know was possible.  I had previously accepted some of my shortcomings as "just part of my personality."  I am staggered by the depth of change

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Trust the Process 

What strange beings we are; that sitting in hell at the bottom of the dark, we're afraid of our own immortality.  - RUMI

I love this wisdom from Rumi.  I like to define immortality as my soul; the living presence of God in human form.  How easily we forget we are the light.  How easy it is to listen to the ego and linger in the darkness of fear.  Amazing things are happening to me.  It is a glorious time to be alive.  The world is transforming and so are we. 

I did not even realize that my ego was keeping me in darkness.  I thought I had life all figured out.  I was in control.  The odd thing was even though I "thought" I knew what I was doing and where I was going, my heart did not have peace.  My ego kept me in denial of my feelings.  It did not let me see the issues and behaviors I needed t correct.  So many traumas from my past were affecting my behavior and holding me back.  I did not trust in the process of life.  I did not trust the flow of God's love.  I became a human doing, fighting for survival.  When things went "wrong", I blamed God instead of looking for my own part in the drama.  I was so focused on the problems, I forgot God has all the answers.  My mind held the fear and created negative energy that bogged me down.

Then the miracle happened.  After much prayer from myself and others, God stepped in and helped me see where I was limiting the flow of goodness in my life.  In the past 5 months God helped me create a new me.  The hardness of living was stripped away.  I became vulnerable to new ways of thinking and being.  I became aware of the behaviors that limit my good.  I connected to people in a new way.  Better able to see the beauty of each person.  I can more easily relate.  People in my life are absolutely amazing in their expression of love.  Every day love and kindness was offered and I learned to accept.  I learned I could trust and let go of control.  I came to understand that we create challenges in our life to help us correct beliefs and behaviors created by trauma that keep us in the dark.

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Clearing Limitations 

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.   _  Anonymous

Happy 2012!  I am grateful for a new year!  I am still working to recover from the panic attacks, anxiety and sleeplessness that has been plaguing me since September.  The good news is my stomach is in good shape.  2011 was a tumultuous year and I am reeling from the changes.  All changes occurring at this time are helping us to release the past once and for all so, we can embrace the new and wonderful energies transforming the planet at this time.  We are moving into a Christ or God consciousness in body, mind and heart.  We will live in awareness that we are one with the creator, all life and the planet, manifesting love and peace.  The darkness ceases to exist in the light.  Therefore all our "old baggage" needs to be cleared.

Obviously, I had a lot of "old baggage"!  LOL :)  For months now my body has been purging itself.  In my mind, All my fears came to the surface, one by one.  50 years worth.  Western medicine could find no cause for my symptoms and medication took the edge off but in the end made things worse.  God's love and guidance have healed me.  It got me to the right people and places.  It helped me to embrace what needed to be healed.  I have been working with my naturopath (Harry Abbey), my partner, other healers, friends and my own spiritual and yogic practice to clear these issues.  Actually in the past two days I feel I have turned a corner.  I got some sleep and the panic attacks have ceased.  This has been a very slow soul searching process but I have learned much about my self!

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Holiday Blessings

 As you celebrate, remember to also enjoy and celebrate the wonders of your life and your Being and the great capacity you have within you to love and grow even greater love.  - Jo Dunning

I recently received the above message in a newsletter from a great healer I work with on line.  When I read that quote my heart leaped with joy.  This is what I want for Christmas, to celebrate the wonders and to grow in love, to experience my Being, my true self.  I also read this week that people don't remember what you say or do but, how they felt when they were around you.  How nice it would be to celebrate life every day and express my true self to the world.  I would like that for myself.  I would like to offer that love to the world. That is my Christmas wish.

I offer this blessings to you that your joy may be full and your love great!

I ask the 10,000 angels to bring the joy of celebration into your Holiday Season.  May you easily identify the wonders in your life and cherish every one of them.  May your Holy Spirit rise to the surface each morning and be the defining factor in each day.  May you recognize the love deep inside and help it to grow, sharing love and compassion in this world.  May you know peace.  I ask that this is done and it is so.  And so it is!

I wish you a joy filled Holiday and the brightest and best of New Years!

Holiday refresher
Tuesday, December 27th, 7-9pm
House of Nutrition, Luzerne
Fee: $20

Rid yourself of holiday stress!  Start the New Year clean and fresh.  Retreat from the world with this mini vacation!  Release stress and recharge with this relaxing class, created to refresh your body and revive your soul.  Not just for yoga practitioners.  Simple restorative yoga refreshes energy to the body.  Let go completely in yoga nidra, a relaxation technique done lying on the floor.  Guaranteed to melt stress.  Release body pain and tension with breath work and visualization.  The class concludes with a guided visual journey to unwind your knotted mind.  Call Sandy to reserve a space.  288-1785  Walk ins welcome.  Wear comfortable clothes.  Bring a blanket and yoga mat if you have one.  Yoga mats, chairs and some blankets available.